Exhaustion and a Lack of Motivation

Here I am, sitting at my desk once again pondering what the hell it is I'm doing with my life.

I've been making small steps to improve my self image and esteem, trying to get out more, saying yes to things to do that might not be exactly what I'm thinking of doing that given day. I've lost weight, I eat less and I'm going to start working out again soon, since I don't have my kicking to keep me occupied most nights.

I've felt really slow lately, both mentally and physically. It's getting to be that time of the year when I get a bit depressed and underwhelmed with life in general. I've been trying to read things that might help me combat this "winter blues". I've read many things that say altering my diet and getting exercise will help the process of me feeling better in my day to day life, but as of yet I haven't seen any results as far as the eating things rolls.

I'm starting to feel like a broken record. I need to set me some goals and make some progress towards said goals. A career, college and a hopefully successful life are ahead of me, I have all the potential in the world to make these things happen, but I need to MAKE them happen, not just hope that life happens itself upon me.

This leads back to a serious lack of motivation and drive in life. There are things I've done to try to help, and there is more I can do, but how do you counter a prevalent lack of motivation and drive to succeed in ones life? Am I just afraid that something good might happen to me? Am I too afraid to let myself have a good time. I know this fear has plagued my interactions with the fairer sex for a long time, but have they also lead me to be less risk taking as a general rule? I hope not, I don't think I'm afraid of my own future, but I'm hoping I can break out of whatever weird slump/funk I've been in lately and walk tall and get my life going in the right direction.

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