Random Thoughts and Sadness

Good morning all,

I just felt like rambling about some of the occurrences of the last couple days, so don't mind me, I'm just venting.

Today we're getting hit with our first noreaster! Ick, I hate snow, especially when piled up past a foot (supposedly 17" here by tomorrow evening... when I'm driving back to NY, lucky me!) especially since it's so damned cold!

I'm feeling really burnt out and tired all the time lately, and I'm not really sure why. Part of it I assume is my malnourishment that I've been propagating on myself. I'm also sure part of it is my now basically defunct social life, which has led me to be quite sad many of the waking hours. I know it's not sleep, because I slept my full 8 last night, and still feel pretty beat today, wicked awesome! I checked my facebook, and on of the stupid programs decided to update me on how unpopular I am with my own friends. I'm also 0 for 17 in the stupid "Would you date me?" program. That's not what the ego needed right about now.

It makes me even more excited for A) this weekend and B) July when I can leave this town and move some where that I may have my friends or be able to make some new ones. I really just feel like I don't fit up here, it's cold and I'm more and more averse to the "North Eastern Attitude" towards life. I'm a friendly outgoing person when I'm not constantly being looked at like I have 17 heads by people.

I still need to figure out how to make a more positive happy me happen. That's becoming more apparant each day. I am still a little lost on how to make this happen. I've been tempted to go the hit the clubs and bars and hit on all kinds of women route, but it's really my family and friends I miss most. I suppose I just need to gut it out, and try to learn how to keep my emotions in better check, which should help me in the long run.

Anyway, I'm at work and should probably be more productive, until next time.