Week from hell...

Well I'm back in NH after having my car break down. Last night was the company holiday party that I had to do all the planning for. Fortunately it went off without a hitch, I don't know if I could have handled it otherwise.

My car thing made me think of how reactive I am to everything and how I should be more proactive in life. Go out and do as opposed to thinking good things are just going to happen to me. I'd like to be the go-getter. Right now I just don't know if I'm capable.

Yep, if you know me, it's that time of year, I'm getting depressed as hell. Last night, I was hanging out with my co-workers and realized that I was the ONLY single person in a group of 8. The only one? Are you fucking kidding me? It's kind of hard for me too. I apparently made people think I was less than wonderful by dating Brenda a couple months ago, because she was only 18. I cracked that there wasn't much option, but even being told that kind of stung. It's not like I haven't been looking, although the probability that the looking has been in the right places is pretty slim, it's not like my work work work schedule has me meeting too many 21+ year old single women without children. So yea, it's a bummer, I work too much, have no fun and my social life is basically nothing outside of the occasional hang out with some of my co-workers. 9 out of 10 nights I just go to the apartment and sit around with my anti-social roommate playing Warcraft and wondering how long it's gotta be until I can move back to NY, or to NC or anywhere but here.

I don't want your pity. If you're a really attractive, single, childless and over 21 year old woman, I wouldn't mind a date or two however. Haha.

I'm out.