Excuse the mess.

So, I broke it off with a girl who shall remain un-named today. I'd been involved but not official for a while now, and we had a major sticking point in I wasn't the only guy in her life. It bothered me to no end, and consumed many of my waking thoughts. For the first time in my life, I stood up for what I wanted with a girl that I liked. Instead of being walked over and keeping my mouth shut to avoid being lonely, I took charge and put out an ultimatum, it's either he's gone, or I am...

Well I am the one who's gone. I'm kind of upset, and kind of relieved. It's bringing a lot of things up, like why would I let someone do that to me, and what was I doing to make her so damned important.

I suppose the big thing out of here was I said "You know what, being alone isn't all that awful" for the first time in my life. I'm tired of meeting women and falling for them before they've proved to be worth my affection, I know it's shocking, for once I think my affection is worth something. My time IS worth something, I wouldn't have so many awesome friends if it wasn't.

It's now time to get over the fear of being alone and rejected. I plan on going on, and talking to any pretty girl I see. I read somewhere that you can only have two outcomes when you chat up a pretty women. You can be having fun, or be bored. It's a saying that inheirantly gives your time and your perspective value over the random woman you meet. It's not your job to impress them and make them see how awesome you are, it's their job to prove they're worth your awesomeness.

Oh, and I'm moving back to NY in about a month to be with my awesome family and all my awesome friends.

Awesome...

Haha, till next time.

PMack